i know youre all waiting to hear the next part of the luvchild saga but i cant be bothered to write about it. luvchilds such a little fucking freak shes not worth her weight in fuck. whatthefuck. that was gay. im talking such a load of fucking shit these days. a shitload of fuck. hahahahaha. anyways i mean i cant be fucked talking about her anymore so if you dont like it you can fucking well fuck off.

fuck. well i guess id better tell you how i got back here. i didnt have any money whatsoever well i did but it was all pounds and pence which wasnt a fucking lot of good. i couldnt even phone my parents and let them know where i was. i went back to kaylias house to ask if i could send them an email even though they dont have a fucking clue how to work the fucking computer but you know they might check in times of trouble. fuck. i just thought what if they read all this shit. im fucking dead i mean these are my fucking feelings. fuck im getting off the subject again. anyways luvchild answered the door and cussed me out and wouldnt let me in or give me any money or anything.

eventually i sold the rasr. fuck. i mean i tried to sell the hole and natalie imbruglia cds but no one wanted them because everyone already owned them. fuck them. fuck everyone for buying them and fuck hole and natalie imbruglia for being so fucking popular. i fucking hate them now bastards. everyone thinks its sooooooooooo fucking cool to worship them but theyre a pile of fucking shit man. being cool is a pile of fucking shit too. so anyways i had to part with the rasr and then i phoned my fucking parents and told them where i was and they said theyd organise it so i could come back to england and blahblahblah.

when i got back they gave me this fucking long lecture blahblahblah i didnt listen to a word of it. i mean they were telling me never to go and see luvchild again well fuck as if id want to. but they wouldnt listen. anyways they eventually said i can either go to fucking boarding school or go back to fucking shit land because theyd talked to the headmaster and hed said i could go back there if i behaved. well i said if i had to go somewhere it would be fucking shit land. its a good name for it isnt it. hahahahahahaha. anyways i told them how much i fucking didnt want to go and they were like but youve only got five weeks left. five whole fucking weeks i said ill die. but they said if you show any signs of dying well let you stay at home.

fucking brilliant. when i go back to school im going to start acting like im dying all the time so i dont have to go. i probably wont even have to pretend cos you know what im like but anyways. it was the holidays then and it still is now ive got another two weeks before im meant to go back.

anyways. i went to this party. i know i know im such a fucking freak but my fucking parents wanted me to have some sort of fucking social life so they forced me to go. fuck them theyre such fucking freaks. must peoples parents hate them going to fucking parties but mine are just fucking weird. anyways i was actually getting quite excited about this party because i remembered that email hed sent. id told him to fucking fuck off and stuff and that filled me with regret but i thought that if he was drunk and stuff he would forgive me and we could be together. fucking brilliant.

fuck. he was there and he was drunk but he was with her fucking her. no he wasnt fucking her thank god but i bet he does. fuck him. i was just using fucking as an adjective to express my anger and disgust. oh fuck that sounded gay. i sound so fucking gay dont i. i need to go to sounding straight classes. hahahahahahaha. anyways i was like what are you doing with her you said you dumped her you fucking bastard. and he was like fuck off and she was like fuck off and i wouldnt because i couldnt believe this was happening. i fucking loved him so fucking much and hed said hed loved me too but here he was the fucking bastard getting off with her and stuff. so i spilt my drink over both of them. hahahahahahahah i said fuck both of you. and you know what she did. she fucking smashed this fucking bottle against the wall and hit me in the face with it.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh it fucking hurt. well i passed out at the sight of my own blood. i know how fucking pathetic. all this time ive been saying i wabt the blood and scars and razrs and im going to slit my wrists and stuff and i fucking fainted when i saw my own blood. im such a fucking freak. anyway i was hoping you know hed be all god are you all right im so sorry i do love you kali and i fucking hate her blahblahblah but he wasnt. fucking bastard. next thing i knew i was in fucking hospital. fuck.

well i sent him an email but he didnt fucking reply. fuck. but i dont really fucking care anymore. i still fucking love him and i wish he was mine and i hate him and i really really hate her the fucking bitch more than i hate anyone else in the entire fucking universe but ive found someone else. someone to fill the hole for a little while and i fucking love her right now.

katy. yeah yeah i know this sounds a lot like luvchild but its not its soooooooooo different. katy is sooooooo much more mature than luvchild ever was and she can rilly feel my pain and sorrow and we weep together and sleep together and that rhymed. fucking cool. anyways im trying not to get to attached this time in case she turns out to be a fucking ugly eleven year old as well. besides my parents keep taking away the modem cable so i cant go online as much. fucking bastards. but its not that bad because i spend the rest of my time thinking about him and planning ways to make him mine. oh yes i will do it. as soon as school gets back or not before.

fuck. i wish i still had a rasr. i wabt the pain. actually i dont im just saying that. which is fucking strange because it fucking hurt when she fucking hit me with that fucking bottle. but i still wish i had a rasr it would make me feel secure and stuff. fuck. i dont know. im such a fucking freak these days. i get bored senseless without the internet cable and i dont know where im fucking going. ill be an adult in four months time fuck i cant believe it. i act like a fucking eleven year old. no wonder i got on well with luvchild. fuck fuck fuck. i wish i was eleven again life was sooooooooo much better back then. fuck im so bored im just writing any old shit in here to pass the time. i know ill post some more porn on ubbs. yays. hahahahahahahaha.