you know what??????? i really really hate online journals!!!!!!! theyre such a load of shit!!!!!!! all anyone ever writes is "today i went to school it was boring i went to the mall i saw him!!!!!!!! i really love him!!!!!!!!!! i wish he was mine!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh i hate myself!!!!!!!! i want to die!!!!!!!!!!" im not saying mine is any better than anyone elses!!!!!!!!!! its just the same!!!!!!!!! if anything its worse!!!!!!!!! but i dont see why ppl dont just give up!!!!!!!!!!! like anyone wants to know!!!!!!!!!